Virgin Meditating on Blow Jobs

I tried to lose my virginity once, back when there wasn't a plague leaving its stench on everything it touched. It never happened, we were drunk and fumbled over each other constantly. But I did achieve something: I gave my first blowjob. I thought I would be ashamed, but I liked it. I obsessed about it. I liked feeling him squirm at my touch, my tongue. I liked his hands in my hair. I liked the feel and taste of him. I would do it all over again.