She's my first

I'm a 22-year-old boy, extremely shy and quiet. I've never dated a girl or kissed one, but I'm obsessed with losing my virginity, not in a rough way, but with a person that treats me with care and respect. I'd feel myself safe and protected if I learned the "art of love" with a mature, beautiful woman who can help me to solve my lack of confidence. A person who would encourage me to be a better person and to help me forget the guilt that sexuality and sex cause in my daily life.