First Crush

I recently reconnected with the first boy I ever had a crush on (we first met when I was 6 and he was 7, I'm 26 and he's 27). We have been texting every day since the beginning of the pandemic, and we've managed to visit each other in person several times. We FaceTime at least once a week and we Snapchat daily. I feel an intense emotional and physical connection with him, but nothing has ever turned sexual. I've had so many dreams about fucking him. The thought of kissing him is enough to make me wet. That anticipation is killing me. Each time I visit him, I think, "This could be the moment. It could happen this time." Oh, how I wish it would. I know that the sex would be phenomenal, but for now, my dreams will have to do.