Boss Crush

I guess you could say this is a typical story about a girl who has a longing for her boss. I met him about 6 months ago, he is the manager and I am the assistant manager. It started off as friendly, making jokes and laughing together but slowly the jokes got more and more sexual. The kicker is he has a wife, and a daughter that's older than I am. He's twice my age but I can't help but imagine what that type of experience feels like in the bedroom. I get sick of 20 year old boys wasting my time just so I can go and finish it myself anyways. I wonder if he knows that every time I lay in bed at night after work I rub myself and try to imagine it's his hand doing the work. To some degree it's the longing of wanting something that you can't have, and I know that. I just can't help but imagine what it feels like to have his hands roam over the most sensitive parts of my body. I've even had to take breaks at work and hide out in the bathroom to take care of myself because seeing him sitting at his desk causes images of him bending me over that desk with a handful of my hair in his hand. I have never felt this type of intensity when it comes to being sexually attracted to somebody. I just felt like it was something I needed to get off my chest before I said all of this to him myself. I know it's wrong but it feels so right when I'm around him.