Hunger - Who's in Charge?

She knows that she has absolute power over me and she loves reminding me of it. If she tells him, I'll most likely lose my job. Just once, I'd like to control her. I want to be in charge for once. I want to make her beg me for more only to walk straight into my stupid boss' office after I fuck her and tell him that I've been screwing his wife. But I probably won't. How could I? I don't fully understand why I can't just stop this, but I am writing this as I am sitting in my car, two streets away from their house. I am waiting for him to leave for his 3:30 O'clock appointment. I can't help it..this fucked up situation really gets me off.