Decipher me, or I'll devour you

My friend is handsome. He is 6", caramel skin and green eyes, he could get a woman anytime he wants. He said he didn't want his lack of commitment to ruin our friendship so we never slept together, but I wanted him so badly... and I knew he felt something too.

Once we went to a club and, as usual, he grabbed a beautiful foreign girl to chat up, whispering to me how hot she was. He then got her number and went to settle the bill so we could go home. Something came over me.... I had never kissed a girl before but I had an overwhelming urge to claim his conquest, out of my own frustration.
So I leaned in and told her how beautiful and feminine she was and I really wanted to know how it felt to kiss her. She agreed and we kissed passionately for a few minutes. When we were done, I saw my friend staring at us a ways away silent and stoic. He looked right at me, but I wasn't able to decipher his feelings.
We said goodbye to the other girl and jumped in a cab, back to his apartment. The whole ride back he was completely silent, and I didn't say a word. When we got back I started to prepare the couch, where I normally crash, but he grabbed me by the hand and led me to the bedroom. And without saying a word he kissed me senseless, undressed me and put me on top of him so he could watch me ride his body.... I woke up the next morning, and many other mornings, in his arms.