A Japanese Love

In university I had this friend. He was Japanese, skinny, not that tall. The goth type.
He and I were very close. We played in a band together, and we did a lot of other things together too.

One night we were having a sleepover, just the two of us. He fell asleep, and I looked at him.
I was watching him sleep. He was such a beautiful person.

I'm not gay, but at that moment, I swear I felt something for him. Something other than 'just friends'.

I wondered what'd be like to kiss him, and to have gentle, slow sex with him. We were both virgins at that point, so we wouldn't know how exactly everything worked.
But I wondered...