I want a cock in my mouth

I've been proudly hetero all my life. But I have been curious about other men. Never on a romantic or sentimental way. Purely as flesh, as objects to perhaps one day, enjoy. I like watching rugby games, for example. While I pretend to follow the game, I secretly stare at the thighs of the players, their bulges and their chests, and think what good fuckings they must give their girlfriends. I think my wife would understand; the same way I would understand if she had accidental sex with another woman.
My first encounter with a man needs to be someone I had not come across before. He cannot be an old friend, or for that matter, live in the same country I'm in. There needs to be a clean separation between my life and his. It needs to be almost transactional. I'd like him to have a lean build. With a six pack, a pumped chest. I would like to touch his chest, abs, pubic hair and cock. Dark skinned.
I would run my hands all over his body. I wouldn't kiss him. But I would lick his nipples and his body. I would love to hold his cock, to fondle his balls. I would take his cock to my face and take its scent in. I would love to take his cock in my mouth. I really would. I've never done this before, and I would be concerned about hurting him with my teeth, but assuming I got things in order, I would take him in my mouth as much as I could. I would deep throat him, I would keep him in as long as I could. I would try to make his cock touch the back of my mouth until I gagged. I think I would like gagging. And if he wanted to fuck my mouth until he came, I would love it. I would take his come in my mouth and swallow it. I would let him play with my body. I would let him do whatever he wanted with my cock and my anus. I'd love to know what a gay man would do with a first-timer like me. I would submit myself to anything. If he wanted to fuck me, I'd let him. Condom and lubricant is all I would ask for. I would like to be on all fours first; but later would like to be on my back, masturbating while watching him pump his cock into me.