Tantra Lovers

I think I am too much of a control freak. I am a little embarrassed to share this but many times even when I have sex I am thinking about other stuff: work, shopping lists, laundry, a painting that doesn't hang straight...
I wish I could get out of my head and just enjoy the moment I live in. I wish I found a lover who could take me on a sacred journey inwards. Someone with so much presence and confidence that I would dare to surrender to the NOW. I want to dare to connect with myself through our gaze, touch, scents, sounds... I want to feel every millimeter of my skin until I reach a full-body orgasm.