Mind Sex

I have a close friend, colleague, also mentor I look upon. I've known her for a decade, a dependable woman, but I never felt sexually attracted to her. Until she is married, then I realized her feminine side, I started to observe and pay attention to detail. Her lips, when she speaks, imagine how can i kiss them, and lick them. Her body curve, imagining how she would look when she is above me during sex. Her voice, what would she sound like when she moaned. Every time I am alone with her, she doesn't know that in my mind that she is being fucked hard. I continue to dream and fantasize that one day, I will press my lips against her and make what is in my mind come true