I want a cock of my own!

My name is Lexi. Ever since I was a hormonally enraged teenage girl, wet with curiosity, I have fantasized about having a cock. Not a phallic flesh colored cock but a cock, a color of my choosing, in a harness that accentuates MY very feminine body, in a size and shape similar to the real thing but mine. I want a cock. I want to give pleasure the way a man can, I want to really feel that penetrating quiver as my cock slowly enters a woman and see her face as she takes it. I remember envisioning jacking myself off with an anatomical male attachment (a cock) and loving very second of it while I touched myself uncontrollably until I came. I want to be me, an extremely sultry and feminine woman wearing a cock while slightly dominating the situation but in a passionate way. Beautifully dark. I want us both to have lacy gothic lingerie on, dancing around satin sheets while something like Chelsea Wolfe plays in the background. Erotic, dark, and passionate. I want to see and feel everything on her and fuck her like she deserves and wants to be fucked. I want to be in control. I want this other woman to be slightly nervous and not know if she is actually into women but once things get going she proves to be a natural and experienced bi-sexual. Twitching at the very feel of my lips on her clavicle, neck, and inner thighs. My harness is black leather with a corset backing, my cock is a rose pink colored "strapless" strap-on for dual pleasure but worn with a harness for extra support and of course aesthetics. My husband comes home and without interruption sits on a victorian style chair and watches while jacking off his own cock. The focus is on her and I... His presence is a bonus but he is not involved, just watching and jerking and watching and jerking. Mmmmm...