girls i loved by the pool

Is it weird that I’ve always wanted to throw a pool party for all my exes? Not in a “drama” way, just… I don’t know. Haven’t most lesbians thought about it at some point? Seeing them all in one place. Watching them laugh, stretch out in the sun, slip into the water. There’s something about that idea that gets to me. I think about what it would be like if we didn’t have to be awkward or apologetic. If we could just be queer and free and curious again. Would we still touch the same way?