Forbidden Camping Adventures

As long as I can remember, I've had the biggest crush on my cousin. I daydreamed about him, pined for him. I imagined us falling in love and getting married. I romanticized this possible illicit relationship in my head for years. I dreamed of defying our family to be together and having an intense, forbidden love. As I got older, these desires began to change from being an innocent crush to passionate lust. I wanted him to take me in every way possible. Then one night, my dreams came true. I was never sure if he shared my feelings. There always seemed to be somewhat of an awkward tension, but I did not know if it was one-sided or not. I decided to test my luck one night when we were camping together. It was my first time really drinking, so I wasn't sure what would happen but I knew inhibitions would definitely be lowered. I quickly succumbed to the warm buzz of alcohol, as did he. Before I even knew it we were cuddling in the trailer together, and he was whispering my name. The alcohol helped us forget about the harsh reality and allowed us to be together, even if it was for only one night. Nothing mattered right now, except for us. I moved out of the spooning position and draped myself on top of him, and that's when we both moved in for a kiss. It continued from there, and that's how I lost my virginity. Even though we can't be together, I wouldn't have wanted to lose my virginity any other way. I still love him to this day.