First time swiping
A Sexual Fantasy
I moved to a new country a few months ago to start a doctoral program. I’ve wanted to move away since I was a teenager. Saying that my parents were controlling and overprotective is an understatement. I never truly dated, the logistics were too complicated. In my culture once you meet someone you stay with them for the longest time. We are serial monogamists, but I never fitted in with that. So all my life I threw myself into work and school. This finally got me to where I wanted. Out of my house and into the track for success. However, because I didn't really date I was a 25 year old virgin in a new country.
Three months after I moved I opened a Tinder account, I wanted to experience the whole dating scene in my new city. I met a guy. He was a handsome, funny, successful lawyer. He was also 10 years older than me. We went on a great first date, we talked about books and TV shows and life in general. He had a playful smile and a subtle souther drawl that I didn't know I liked. On our second date he kissed me and I was on fire, it took every ounce of willpower I had not to go to his place that night. However, as I sat in my bed alone that night I realized I was ready to finally have sex. So a week later I invited myself over to his place for wine. Things got heated very quickly. We started making out heavily on his couch while jazz played in the background, I remember thinking "This is so cliche!". I couldn't bring myself to telling him I was a virgin. I just went with it. The sex was fun, it wasn’t very painful. I try to remember details from that evening but only flashes come to mind. Me on top of him. Him whispering you're gorgeous and I just want to make you feel good. Him saying "Talk to me" in a moment when I was clearly nervous. He held me all night, which was unexpected. He woke me up the next morning and said how much he wanted to be inside of me. As I walked back to my apartment I thought to myself "I have never felt more empowered in my life".