Finding the tide

Dear Dear You,

I am trying to make sense of what I like and what turns me on, but, libido lacking, it is mostly hard to see the light.

I am here writing to you in total absence of mind, in quest of a path yet to find.

Would you help me there?

I have tried - and fantasized about - a hard touch in the past, restraints and all, and I may find myself wanting to go there again, but this time, I want to start slow and soft, with you, someone I trust.

I want to see you, and, of course, I want to be seen too. It has been said that “il n’y a pas de rapport sexuel”, but I’d like it if we did our best to meet each other somewhere along the way.

Let’s dip a toe in troubled waters; the dirt may settle and offer some clarity.