Can I be the lollipop?

Well, I am one of those ladies who have a well-established and throughly organized life. Unfortunately I became bit over-controlling also with myself, so letting go is not so easy... I have those two very attractive friends (one very dark, one very blonde), who are in what we call "bromance", while maintaining hetero relationships each. So sometimes I phantasize myself with those guys. I always experienced anal as a way to force myself to relax, stop overthinking and maybe cum. So my daydreams of those two start like this: one of them stabbing me in my bum, while the other one is eating my pussy...