Some Never Awaken

by TheSecretPoet

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Director: Erika Lust
Performers: Sylvan, Katie, Julia Roca
Production year: 2017
Film duration: 11:42
Comments by Erika Lust
I was utterly, completely inspired by this confession, and I found my own quote from Anaïs that speaks very deeply to me: "I love the abstract, delicate, profound, vague, voluptuously wordless sensation of living ecstatically." Julia and Sylvan have the most incredible chemistry as performers who are also friends - both so gorgeous, so full of life and vitality. I hope this film uplifts and awakens you, in the same way it did for me when I made it.

This is a poem that awoke something in me. Maybe it was sexual, maybe it was something deeper. I thought I would share. It is called “Some Never Awaken” by Anaïs Nin.

“You live like this, sheltered, in a delicate world, and you believe you are living. Then you read a book… or you take a trip… and you discover that you are not living, that you are hibernating. The symptoms of hibernating are easily detectable: first, restlessness. The second symptom (when hibernating becomes dangerous and might degenerate into death): absence of pleasure. That is all. It appears like an innocuous illness. Monotony, boredom, death. Millions live like this (or die like this) without knowing it. They work in offices. They drive a car. They picnic with their families. They raise children. And then some shock treatment takes place, a person, a book, a song, and it awakens them and saves them from death. Some never awaken.”

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9 responses to “Some Never Awaken”

  1. Oh, this is special to come across.
    … I woke up a year ago. My shock treatment was a sexual encounter. I used to think I don’t know what I like, specifically in sex. But, this one time suddenly I got all I wanted without even thinking about it. There was no return. It turned my life upside down… but I know and I feel it, I am wild and alive now.
    Thanks for sharing this!

    • Would you want to share what woke you up? Just curious, do not feel pressured into anything.

  2. Beautiful poem. Only know Anais Nin for her master pieces of erotic fiction but her focus seems to have been wider. Or this is about erotic encounters, too 😉

  3. Julia es por lejos la mejor performer de tu calificado team Erika, es una verdadera atleta sexual,pone todo en cada actuación, trasmite pasión y lujuria, es una verdera estrella en lo suyo. Felicitaciones para ella y para vos por captar con la cámara toda su intensidad..

  4. Wow, no tengo palabras para describir o expresar lo que me hace sentir este film… El comienzo tiene una fuerza increíble, se me antoja reír, gritar, bailar y saltar como lo hace Julia. Locura deliciosa y salvaje, me ha llegado bien adentro. Gracias por estas obras maestras!

  5. Muchísimas gracias por hacer esta película y a todos quienes participaron en la realización de esta fantasía. De corazón.
    Me he sentido muy identificada con la energía loca del film y las caras de Julia. Tanto, que ha sido como si alguien se acercara y me dijera: ”está bien. no estás rota.”
    Gracias por elegir buena química entre los actores en tus pelis.

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